last-minute thoughts

I was supposed to fill this page with thoughts that go around my mind as i walk around the universe, but the year passed without much update. It may be because they just came and flew off all of a sudden.

To sum it up, this year is really full of frustrations. Mostly about career and social life. I felt that i was sucked by a black hole and got stuck inside, unable to figure things out.

This is quite hard. Moving on to next year. That is. Every sentence ends with either a question mark or ellipsis. It's hard to fill in the blanks.

But this is nothing serious. My life now is actually just a pause, a comma in the whole story. And there is a bigger paragraph, a chapter, i need to look for that will complete me, and you. And everyone else.

So help me God. Hb.

no space left

sometimes, i feel like that there is no more space left for me here to settle. Every season, every reason is a false promise. The good thing is i somehow managed to learn where to look.

things that matter

I used to be so enthusiastic about this side of life. But as i go along rediscovering the other side of the journey, it feels like that everything i used to wish or aspire for does not not make any sense at all. Sometimes when i do look at the online personalities of people i've met or have known in their names, i feel a tinge of envy, but i wake up and realize i'm lucky because i discovered things that are of great essence. Even if you do not look at it the same way. 

Aha! I still need to tread quite a long journey, but in the end i know i'll be in a happy place. Hb.

this August will soon fade

these rains and pains will soon be gone. When they come again, i know they'll again go. It's just how this world runs. A cycle.

100 reasons and so on...

when you think of reasons, your petition within becomes stronger.

squeezing in

I've been meaning to write something interesting, but  just couldn't. i deliberately want to be creative or something, but sometimes it feels like these things seem unnecessary or pointless. Maybe i need to be jotting all plans in my head and cross out those that are nuisance.

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On another matter, there is this power that social media hold dragging us to feel belittled, envious, or sometimes antisocial knowing about the achievements or activities our "so-called" friends have. i don't know, maybe it's just me. if in real life i hear your story, it may be different. gah!

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Please, please show up the blissful me.

out of place

there are just moments when you wish you're invisible. or just have the power to shut your ears for a while to not hear people squeal. blah